freedom...

at last, after having to go camping for 2 weekends in a row, i'm free...

it's been very tiring... and i'm having a cold right now...

hmph...

i was just getting the idea of going home this weekend coz my sister is back...but then there is a meeting with the MARA people...huh???

i can't go home???

down

hi everyone, i'm feeling rather down now cause sth bad happened to my family a few days back, however i'm not by their side.

not a week ago, i was feeling rather excited, cause my expecting sister was due to give birth yesterday. and last tuesday, i posted of how excited i was on my fb, but then, the next day, my mother sent me a message, saying that my sister had given birth, however, the baby did not survive, and i was very dumbfounded, i didn't know what to say to her. i couldn't feel anything at first, but then, this morning, a friend asked me about the baby, and i couldn't utter a word, and my eyes started to feel wet. i just sort of whispered to her that the baby died, and then she went silent. i know she was sorry and she regretted asking about it, but i couldn't say anything about me not minding it. but now, almost twelve hours after she asked about it, i can't stop but cry, luckily i'm alone tonight, i know, my sister must be feeling a lot worst than i do, and i don't know what to say to her when i meet her in future...i can't believe this is happening to my family, to my sister, it's so heartbreaking